It starts in my toes, just a little tingle, a little warning sign and then it begins.
Hot blood runs up my veins and through my limbs. I can visualise it in my head as it happens. A tree of arteries across my back that becomes flooded with heat. Immediately spots of perspiration try pathetically to compensate. My body rapidly becomes all clammy, sticky, I feel my face flush and the back of my neck drip. I instinctively want to almost start panting and find myself becoming restless and pacing round the room.
It doesn’t sit comfortably inside my head either. It is a reminder of my interference. It feels as if my body is suddenly needing something that it can’t find and instead responds in panic. It’s not right.
I’m not sure what I could/should/shouldn’t take. I think I could now have HRT as theoretically I have no breast tissue left (or very little). But I have had my ovaries removed so as to remove all hormones and to now just replace them all artificially?……seems as bit crazy.
And if there are just a few cells of breast tissue left and the HRT ignites my gene then ………….boom…….., I have triggered something that may lead to cancer.
I think there are plant based substitutes available but the cynic in me just feels the doc would have prescribed them if there was any real evidence that they worked.
I have interevened to such a ridiculous level and now surely I should leave nature to rescramble and to heal me?
But I’m hot. Most of the day and almost all night…..